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No mom wants to catch her 9-year-old watching porn

Feminista Jones

It was entirely too quiet.

I don’t know a single parent of a child under the age of 10 who doesn’t grow concerned when their hyperactive child is silent for more than five minutes at a time. We listen for a laugh, a yell, a bump followed by an “I’m OK!”, or just the general childhood din parents become accustomed to that lets us know that they’re fine and the house isn’t about to burn down.

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So a few weeks ago, when I realized that at least 15 minutes or so had passed by without so much as a peep from my 9-year-old son, I went to check on him. Red flag No. 1: He was in my bedroom with the door closed. Red flag No. 2: When I opened the door, he immediately slammed down his laptop as his head shot up, and turned red. In that moment, I knew he was up to something he knew he shouldn’t have been doing.

“What were you doing?” I asked. No answer. Eyes widened.

“What was on the computer that you don’t want me to see?” He scoots back to put distance between us. I knew that look on his face. Ahhh OK, he has been watching porn.

“S-E-X,” he said, finally, after putting enough distance between us. I realized I was clenching my fists, so I relaxed my hands, took a deep breath, and asked, “Why were you watching that? We talked about this before and how you shouldn’t be doing that.” He put his head down, and what happened next became one of the most important conversations in our relationship.

I’m a sex-positive feminist mother known for my liberal approach to sex and sexuality. I’m big on having open, age-appropriate discussions about sex with children. When I became a mother, one of my goals was to raise a sex-positive child who accepted everyone’s sexual identities and felt safe enough to explore and embrace his own. One of the best gifts my own mother gave me was a safe space to talk about these things.

His father and I divorced when he was a preschooler, but one of the great things about our co-parenting situation is that his father agrees that we should be proactive in our sexual education and make efforts to counter whatever negative ideas he might encounter in school and among family or friends, or just around the neighborhood.

This was not the first time I discovered him looking at graphic sexual images and videos, though. A couple of years ago, I checked the search history on his tablet and saw search terms like “boy kiss girl on butt” and “girl and boy sexy.” We spoke about it then and he said he’d seen his older half-sister and older step-brother checking things out online. As children are likely to be, he was curious, and in the only language he knew, he went looking for more.

We discussed, then, why I thought it was inappropriate for him to look at those kinds of images, and I took care to explain that sex isn’t bad and that when he is older, more mature and responsible, we can talk more about what it means to be sexually active. He seemed to understand and promised to not go looking for porn anymore.

Two years later, he is looking again, this time on his own computer. This was way deeper than I imagined and, admittedly, I was more bothered by his sneakiness than I was about the porn viewing. I realized my precious, “innocent” baby was becoming a plotting and scheming big boy. Our talk, then, became about honesty and being trustworthy, and how compromising on that can have greater consequences for him as he gets older.

He opened up and said that he had a “friend” at school, who happens to be a girl, and that his friends are always trying to get him to kiss and touch her so they can watch. Classic peer pressure. He said he doesn’t feel comfortable and doesn’t want to, but he figured he could learn something from watching the videos. I told him that I understood his quite normal curiosity and that I wanted him to ask me questions before looking online.

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One of the reasons I don’t want him watching any of the porn videos is because so many of them depict women engaging in sexual situations against their will. There is way more emphasis on “forced sex” these days and it even rattles me, Sex-Positive Mommy. When I later spoke with his father about what happened and asked for his input on how best to address it, he said that he began looking at videos and magazines around the same age and that it’s normal. I reminded him that we didn’t have instant access to extremely graphic videos on our phones back then, so we talked about taking these more digitally preventative methods:

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Installing apps

I have found a lot of success with the Safe Browser web filter, designed to filter and block adult content on web browsers. For older tweens and teens with iPhones, Parent Pact is a good app that helps you teach responsible device usage. Kids Lox is available on both Android and Apple devices and works to monitor usage, prevent access to adult content and more.

Computer monitoring

I also put parental controls on the laptop, per Microsoft’s instructions, but he signed out of his controlled log-in account and into my all-access account and was able to get around the censors and blocks. I had to hand it to him: Microsoft sends me weekly reports on his activity, so I can check his searches and clicks and if he signed up for any services, and he managed to get around this safeguard. Crafty.

I also have access to his email account, and I discovered that he had, in fact, signed up for some adult services using the Gmail account I created for him. Some may disagree, but I think parents should have open access to email accounts up to a certain age. Many apps require email address log-ins and family members like to send emails back and forth, so I’m not against him having one; I just need to make sure I can see what’s going down in his inbox.

As a parent, I know that I can be both supportive of my son’s healthy sexual curiosity and development while still protecting him from things and behaviors that I believe to be harmful to him at his age. I don’t want his primary ideas about sex to come from porn; I want him to understand that porn is often a rather hyperbolic, fantastical representation of sex, and that he doesn’t have to compare himself or try to measure up to the actors.

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I do want to make sure that we create a safe, open space so that he can feel comfortable asking questions and talking to us about the things he is exposed to while away from us. We believe that is the best way to make sure he is prepared to navigate various situations that will arise as he gets older and more independent. We just want him to be safe and appreciate sex as the positive experience it can and should be for those who choose to engage in it.

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