Time is a flat circle, and it is now (somehow) June 2019. Which means—you guessed it—June 2019 horoscopes and some real intense Gemini energy/vibes. Lucky! And given that this is my birthday month, you will have to indulge me and my unconnected metaphors and deep and enduring love for the em dash. Which, unsurprisingly, will be a theme for all signs this summer. Indulgence. Think ladies-enjoying-chocolate-while-somehow-enveloped-in-white-satin indulgence.
Sometimes it feels like we’re all just waiting for this ONE special occasion to make everything worth it. Like, some weird adult-version of prom that isn’t quite a wedding or a funeral but carries the same weight. Why else do we save our nicest outfits and makeup and ideas and LIFE for some unknown future date when we will finally be Worthy?
Speaking of Worthy, it’s hard to talk about indulgence and self-worth without looking at Beyoncé for guidance. Specifically, this one lyric in “All Night” off her hella renowned album, Lemonade: “Nothing real can be threatened; true love breathes salvation.” I mean, Beyoncé’s lyrics generally slap hard (talking about level ~6-8 on a general 10-level scale)—but this one just sucker-punches me every time I hear it.
Like, what kind of sorcery-truth-witchy-shit is THAT? You know when something is so true it just sort of ends you for a second? Nothing real can be threatened. True love is salvation? Like the love a mother has for her child, or the way you feel about your childhood best friend. All of these tenuous things you can’t hold in your hands that are realer than anything you could ever throw out of a window.
Because that’s what we’re really talking about when we talk about worthiness and indulgence. We’re talking about big feelings and how we treat ourselves internally and externally. And really, if we treat ourselves like children, with care and softness and empathy, with indulgence and patience, that is what’s real. That is our salvation.
This article was originally published on Stylecaster.