These Diary Pages From a Woman's Last Days Are Upsetting, Yet Important

Mar 31, 2017 at 11:00 a.m. ET
Image: 'God Knows Where I Am'/Wider Film Projects

Linda Bishop was a well-educated mother from New Hampshire. She suffered from severe bipolar disorder with psychosis. She was homeless. She lived in an abandoned farmhouse for four months and lived off rainwater and apples through one of the coldest winters. And she documented it all in a diary so poignant, captivating and, yes, disturbing, it was turned into a documentary: God Knows Where I Am.

God Knows Where I Am is a study of “systemic failure and also a testament to the artistic and independent spirit of Linda Bishop,” according to the film’s description. It asks the question: If one’s mind is not free, how can one truly exercise free will? It questions societal norms for dealing with the homeless and mentally ill.

The following pages were scanned from Bishop’s diary. Paired along with comments from Bishop’s sister Joan Bishop, you too might just be compelled enough to watch the documentary, which features Footloose actress Lori Singer reading Linda Bishop's words aloud.

Directed by filmmakers and brothers Todd Wider and Jedd Wider,God Knows Where I Am hits theaters in NYC today, March 31, at the Lincoln Plaza. It’ll then release April 7 in LA, followed by a national rollout.

1 /7: 'No one helped me'

Linda Bishop diary page
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1/7 :'No one helped me'

2 /7: 'Have 3 apples saved...'

Linda Bishop diary page
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2/7 :'Have 3 apples saved...'

3 /7: 'The Domestic Violence Center is not the answer...'

Linda Bishop diary page
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3/7 :'The Domestic Violence Center is not the answer...'

4 /7: 'I love my husband so much...'

Linda Bishop diary page
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4/7 :'I love my husband so much...'

5 /7: '13th day without food'

Linda Bishop diary page
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5/7 :'13th day without food'

6 /7: 'Too weak, too much pain'

Linda Bishop diary page
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6/7 :'Too weak, too much pain'

7 /7: 'Epiphany'

Linda Bishop diary page
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7/7 :'Epiphany'