Both fans and haters are responding in force to Chrissy Teigen’s lengthy Instagram post yesterday. In the social media share, Teigen opened up about her mental health struggles after being “cancelled” amid cyber bullying allegations. Teigen recently experienced serious backlash for tweets from her past in which she targeted a then-teenage Courtney Stodden. She’s also been accused of harassing many others with hateful messages and comments.
In Teigen’s new post, she shared a photo of her legs in a pair of ripped jeans as she lounged on the couch. The caption reads: “[It] just feels so weird to pretend nothing happened in this online world but feel like utter s*** in real life. Going outside sucks and doesn’t feel right, being at home alone with my mind makes my depressed head race. But I do know that however I’m handling this now isn’t the right answer.”
“I feel lost and need to find my place again, I need to snap out of this, I desperately wanna communicate with you guys instead of pretending everything is okay,” Teigen wrote. “I’m not used to any other way!! Cancel club is a fascinating thing and I have learned a whollllle lot.
“Only a few understand it and it’s impossible to know til you’re in it,” Teigen continued. “And it’s hard to talk about it in that sense because obviously you sound whiney when you’ve clearly done something wrong. It just sucks. There is no winning. But there never is here anyhow.”
“All I know is I love you guys, I miss you guys, and I just needed an honest moment with you because I’m just…tired of being sick with myself all day,” she went on. “I don’t even know if it’s good to say any of this because it’s gonna get brutally picked apart but I dunno. I can’t do this silent s*** anymore!”
She concluded: “If you or someone you know has also been cancelled please let me know if there is a cancel club reunion because I could use some time off my couch! Thank u and goodbye I love u.”
The post isn’t sitting well with some fans, however, who remember the social media posts of Teigen’s family trip to Italy just about a week ago. Teigen shared numerous gorgeous photos from Portofino to Cinque Terre to Pisa, so she hasn’t exactly been sitting at home wallowing in her sorrows.
“Saw you on TMZ vacationing in Europe. Boo hoo,” wrote one follower.
Another commenter wrote, “All you had to do was be a good person. Instead you were a b****, now want to cry because you don’t have the attention/validation from strangers daily? Wild!! girl, go live your lavish, rich, and highly favorable life.”
Other comments, however, were supportive of Teigen and her attempts to learn and grow as a person.
“Chrissy… I’m glad to hear from you. I missed you,” wrote one fan. “Hey… we all make mistakes… and do better when we know better. Bring it in, girl. Big hugs. You are loved. Welcome back.”
Another fan commented, “We are here with you girl. Appreciate your honesty and transparency, people do learn and change… people do make mistakes. Learn from it, move on, don’t let it consume you. You got this.”
In June, Teigen issued a lengthy apology in a Medium blog post, stating that she was “truly ashamed” of her “awful” tweets targeting Stodden.
“There is simply no excuse for my past horrible tweets,” Teigen wrote. “My targets didn’t deserve them. No one does. Many of them needed empathy, kindness, understanding and support, not my meanness masquerading as a kind of casual, edgy humor. I was a troll, full stop. And I am so sorry.”
She added: “I won’t ask for your forgiveness, only your patience and tolerance. I ask that you allow me, as I promise to allow you, to own past mistakes and be given the opportunity to seek self improvement and change.”
Before you go, click here to see stars who have been open about their struggles with depression.