During an interview with Harper’s Bazaar for their August issue, Stefani spoke candidly about the discovery of her husband’s alleged indiscretions with the family nanny, and the devastation that followed.
“It was the beginning of hell. Like six, seven, eight months of torture, trying to figure out this big secret,” Stefani told the publication, adding that she wanted to “tell everybody,” but kept mostly quiet for the sake of her children.
Everyone knows what happened between Stefani and Rossdale — their every move was reported and dissected, becoming the topic of multiple reports, and causing even more rumors — but how did she cope, knowing her divorce was playing out in the media?
According to Stefani, she turned to prayer.
“That’s my childhood, that’s how I was raised. And I think I strayed from that. But you know when it gets that bad, you just get desperate? You’re on your knees. You’re like, ‘What do I do?’ You can’t even go to your parents and ask them what to do,” she explained.
Stefani also focused her time on her three sons, who she now shares custody of with Rossdale, something which is extremely painful for the loving mom.
“It was so insane because not only did my family break up, but then my kids are taken away like half the time, so that was really like, ‘What?! What did I do?” she admits.
Stefani’s divorce left her with “shattered” dreams. “All I wanted my whole life was to have babies, be married, like what my parents have,” she told the publication. But rather than feeling sorry for herself, she decided to use these emotions for something good, and channel them into her new studio album, This Is What the Truth Feels Like.
Her album has been a huge success, but more than that, we’re happy to see how Stefani’s strong will helped her to turn those difficult times in her life into something creative and inspiring, something that may help others going through similar situations to know that it’s OK, things do (eventually) get better.
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