Amanda Peet writes a self-loathing letter about hating her wrinkles

Apr 26, 2016 at 8:05 p.m. ET
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Amanda Peet says she absolutely loathes what aging is doing to her appearance, but she refuses to resort to the lengths other Hollywood actresses do to continue to get roles past their 20s.

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In this month's Lenny Letter on Lena Dunham's site, Peet admits she is far from comfortable with the aging process, especially since it has been costing her roles.

"It's painfully obvious, but I'm still ashamed to admit this: I care about my looks. How else can I explain my trainer, stylist and Barney's card? I've bleached my teeth, dyed my hair, peeled and lasered my face, and tried a slew of age-defying creams," Peet wrote. "More than once, I've asked the director of photography on a show to soften my laugh lines. Nothing about this suggests I'm aging gracefully.

"Recently, I was told I was ineligible for a movie because I wasn't 'current enough,'" she revealed. "I'm constantly pushed out by younger talent, like Alicia Vikander. You think, 'Wait, she's 27 and a gorgeous movie star, and you're 44 and a low-tier, TV-mom-type; you're not in the same ballpark.' But she is squeezing me out. She's in the hot center and I'm on the remote perimeter. The train has left the station and I'm one of those moronic stragglers running alongside with her purse caught in the door. Everyone's looking at me, like, 'Let go, you bullheaded old hag! There's no room for you.'"

But Peet refuses to resort to Botox or fillers or, God forbid, a facelift, because she doesn't want her daughters to resent her for it.

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"Another frightening scenario is that one or both of my daughters will do as I did in my youth: go to college, take Feminist Texts and Theory and stop shaving their legs and armpits," she wrote. "As hard-core feminists, they'll write me off. I'll cry, Why aren't you coming home for Thanksgiving? And they'll be like, 'You're nothing but a foot soldier for the beauty industrial complex.'"

But Peet says it doesn't matter anyway, because no matter what we do, eventually we will all fall apart.

"Botox or no Botox, we shouldn't feel bitter, because we're ALL going to look like shit. Every last one of us."

She does have a point.

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