Ronda Rousey shares how her UFC loss emotionally scarred her

Feb 16, 2016 at 12:29 p.m. ET
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Ronda Rousey appeared on The Ellen Degeneres Show to talk about the UFC fight that could have changed the course of her life.

Rousey opens up about the day she fought Holly Holm — and the dark thoughts she had immediately following her loss:

"Honestly, my thought... I was like, in the medical room and I was down in the corner, and I was sitting in the corner like, 'What am I anymore if I'm not this?'... And I was literally sitting there and thinking about killing myself in that exact second. I'm like, 'I'm nothing; what do I do anymore? And no one gives a shit about me anymore without this.'"

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The sight of Rousey's boyfriend, Travis Browne, is what pulled her back from the edge, she said.

"I looked up and I saw my man Travis was standing up there, and I looked up at him and I was like, I need to have his babies I need to stay alive." She knew Browne would be there for her when she was "at her lowest."

Rousey continued, "I was meant to have him when I was at my lowest for sure. I don't know if I would have made it without him."

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Today, Rousey's positive attitude shines through. "I really do believe I'm still undefeated because being defeated is a choice. Everybody has losses in their life, but I choose to always be undefeated," she said.

Ellen DeGeneres thanked Rousey for being brave enough to share her feelings with her audience. She said, "There are a lot of people out there that have thoughts like that, and they're looking at you going, 'Wow she can have thoughts like that.' So you just did a lot of good for a lot of people so thank you for saying that."

Watch the full interview below.

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