Cara Delevingne may seem to have it all, but she was once lost in the darkest depths of depression.
Delevingne revealed that she has always put so much pressure on herself that she has suffered from anxiety and depression from an early age.
“I think I pushed myself so far [at school] that I got to the point where I had a mental breakdown,” she told Rupert Everett at the Women in the World Summit. “I was completely suicidal, I didn’t want to live anymore. I thought that I was completely alone. I also realized how lucky I was, and what a wonderful family and wonderful friends I had, but that didn’t matter. I wanted the world to swallow me up, and nothing seemed better to me than death.”
With the help of therapy and antidepressants, she was able to squeeze through that rough patch, but the darkness never went away completely — not even when her career took off.
“In our culture we are told that if we are beautiful, if we are skinny, if we are successful, famous, if we fit in, if everyone loves us, that we’ll be happy. But that’s not entirely true,” she explained.
“What happened was I eventually said no, and I eventually took a break, from the advice of Kate Moss, who kind of picked me up off the floor,” she said. “It’s about finding people around you who have your best interests at heart. I had a lot of people around me who were just after what I gave them… not looking after me. So it’s about finding people who care about you, and support you. And I’ve now been able to become a support for other people, as well.”
Delevingne has left the runway behind and is totally focusing on her film career. In addition to her turns in Paper Towns and Pan, look for her in Suicide Squad, due out in 2016.