Little Women: LA's Christy Gibel opens up about her infertility struggle
One of my favorite books as a child was The Little Engine That Could. It taught me that when I really try hard at something, I can accomplish anything.
As a little person, there were so many challenges. I needed to work twice as hard than an average-sized person had to. My parents taught me at a very young age that the world didn't revolve around me — that I had to revolve around the world. I never thought trying to have a baby in my late 30s was going to be a huge challenge.
I had my son, Trenton, when I was 19. My daughter, Autumn, was born two years and nine months later. I was just a kid myself. Autumn is about to turn 16 and some people are telling me that I'm crazy for trying to have another child at 38. I understand everyone has their opinions — and you know how I feel about opinions. One main challenge is my age and another is my tilted uterus. Yikes...
Today, my life is more spiritual, happier and definitely more solid. I'm sure a lot of it has to do with being sober almost six years now and who I'm married to, as compared to back in the day. Who am I kidding? That's exactly why! I have an amazing teammate, best friend, lover and soul mate.
I love my God, myself, my kids and my husband, Todd, so much. I'm so blessed that my family loves Todd, too. He was a missing piece to my puzzle. I just want to share the experience of raising a child with my new husband, not just because of what he went through losing his daughter due to double dominance achondroplasia, but because I know he will be amazing at raising a child because he already is so helpful helping me raise my teenage daughter. Also, just the fact we want an "us!"
These past few months have been such a bittersweet roller coaster of emotions. The ups and downs have made Todd and me so much stronger as a couple, but it didn't come without many emotional battles, both inside and out.
The journey has also strengthened the bond we have with Autumn. She's been such an amazing young lady, dealing with my hormonal peaks and valleys, as well as being a wonderful pillar of support when things didn't end up the way we hoped. Autumn is my No. 1 shopping buddy; we do a lot of retail therapy together. I'm sure the news wasn't that easy for her, as well, as she's been very excited for a little brother or sister.
As I write this, I'm not exactly sure what's next. I honestly don't think I can go through the side effects of the hormone injections again, not to mention those oh-so-painful procedures. Todd and I have talked at length about our options going forward. The one thing we know is that we have a ton of love to give and we pray we will be blessed with a new addition to our family in the near future. Whatever route we take, we know we have a whole team of support. We know in our hearts that the stork will come soon.
Thanks for listening,
Christy Gibel xo