Margaret Cho makes heartbreaking confession about childhood sexual abuse

Sep 3, 2015 at 11:40 a.m. ET
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On Wednesday, Margaret Cho made a heartbreaking confession about childhood sexual abuse and how she struggled for years to end it.

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Cho told to Billboard magazine that from ages five to 12, she was sexually abused by a family friend.

"I had a very long-term relationship with this abuser, which is a horrible thing to say. I didn't even understand it was abuse, because I was too young to know," she said. "I endured it so many times, especially because I was alone a lot."

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The comedian's teenage years were plagued by abuse, and she was raped by yet another family acquaintance when she was just 14 years old.

"I was raped continuously through my teenage years, and I didn't know how to stop it," she told the publication. "It was also an era where young girls were being sexualized. For me, I think I had been sexually abused so much in my life that it was hard for me to let go of anger, forgive or understand what happened."

The Fashion Police host also revealed how she was viciously tormented during her time at J. Eugene McAteer High School after confiding in someone about her rape.

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"I told someone that I was raped, and the kids at school found out and said, 'You are so ugly and fat that the only way anybody would have sex with you is if they were crazy and raped you. So don't act like you are hot and somebody wanted to f*** you. It's because you are disgusting, and you deserve to be raped.'"

The reaction from her peers is deeply upsetting, but Cho has put her feelings about her rape into a song that is featured on her new album and titled, "I Want to Kill My Rapist" — the same words feature multiple times in the lyrics.

Other lyrics include, "I thought I forgave you / But I'd mistake you / I'll shake you, and I'll bake you / You better run now while I'm having fun now / Here comes the sun now, and you'll be done now / I see clearly and sincerely, you'll pay dearly...."

Cho's interview is distressing, but her words are powerful. And, by using her public platform to bravely recall her own abuse, she might help bring further awareness to child sexual abuse and advocate for change.