Caitlyn Jenner had a huge week with her ESPY Awards honor July 15, but it wasn’t the dress or the public’s reaction that had her the most nervous.
Instead, Jenner revealed in her new Who Say blog that she was terrified about using the teleprompter to deliver her speech, since she suffered from dyslexia as a young child.
“That stays with you through your whole life,” Jenner explained of her struggle with dyslexia. “That’s why all of my speaking engagements through the years have been always off-the-cuff. I’m better off getting up there knowing what I’m going to say and doing it. But at the ESPYs, I really had to stick to the prompter because I only had a certain number of minutes to make it right, to get my point across. I practiced and practiced and practiced and practiced to make sure I’d nail it.”
Jenner did reveal that a few key moments in her speech were improvised.
“The piece on my mom was improvised, and so was the little joke I had in the beginning. I had to do that joke. They weren’t sure that it was going to work, but I knew that I had to do it for me, just to get out of the mind-set I would be in after that emotional video.”
Of course, there was a lot to fret over the night of the ESPYs, including Jenner’s outfit by Donatella Versace. But Jenner said that while “getting glamorous for the ESPYs was a big process to go through,” it was also “amazing and so much fun.”
“I wanted to feel good. I wanted to feel pretty. I wanted to be myself,” Jenner explained.
And we say check, check and check!
In case you missed it, you can watch Jenner’s full ESPY Award speech below.