Holly Madison reflects on her first scary night in the Playboy Mansion

Jun 23, 2015 at 2:28 p.m. ET
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Holly Madison's memoir Down the Rabbit Hole: Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny has revealed some very unpleasant truths about her life in the Playboy Mansion, and now her recent interview paints an equally uncomfortable picture.

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Speaking during an interview with Us Weekly's Ingrid Meilan, Madison revealed that when she first started going to parties at the Playboy Mansion "it was very glamorous" and she was "starstruck." But things quickly changed once the mansion became her home.

"The first night I had spent at the Playboy Mansion was definitely very eye-opening," she confessed. "It was clear that there were certain things expected of you. It was clear that there was a definite routine going on, and it was very bizarre. It definitely wasn't what I expected it to be — it was a lot scarier. I was offered prescription drugs."

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"I don't know what people think goes on in the bedroom," she continued, "but it was always very much the same, and intimidating, and not something that I liked. It was a miserable part of my life."

Madison also confessed that there was a lot of cattiness and competition within the mansion's walls, and she only later discovered that that was allegedly Hefner's doing.

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"There was a lot of politics inside the mansion," Madison told the mag. "Very catty, very competitive, a kind of scary place to live.

"He just encouraged it because it made him feel special," she said. "Looking back, I see that he was the orchestrator of the whole thing."

Is Holly Madison's description of life inside the Playboy Mansion what you expected it to be like?