Kesha opens up about the 'dark place' she was in before rehab
A little over a year ago, fans were made aware of Kesha's struggles after she checked into rehab for an eating disorder, and now the "Tik Tok" hit maker is opening up about the dark place that she was in at the time.
Speaking during an interview with Vogue, Kesha said, "I've had a lot of ups and downs. It's been quite a journey. [With the criticism], I went to a dark place."
Even more damaging was the fact that at the time of Kesha's unhealthy eating habits, she was being complimented on her figure and how great she looked.
"There was a lot of not eating — and I started to think being hungry to the point of feeling almost faint was a positive thing," she told the publication. "The worse it got, the more positive feedback I was getting. Inside, I was really unhappy, but outside, people were like, 'Wow, you look great.'"
However, thanks to her mom, her time in rehab and her new outlook on life, the star, whose real name is Kesha Rose Sebert, was able to pull herself out of the rut.
"I was singing these songs like 'We R Who We R,' and I really believed them. I wanted to be genuine. But I was sad and [I wasn't eating]," she explained. "That's not good for your body, metabolism or brain. I talked to my therapist, and she said, 'I think it's time we take a moment to address this.' I called my mom one night and I told her, 'I need help.' I went to an eating disorder-specific rehab site where a nutritionist taught me that food is a positive thing for your body."
She continued, "I realized being healthy is the most important thing I can do for myself. Now, I'm trying to embrace the skin I'm in. It's difficult sometimes. Every day I have to look in the mirror and make the choice to be kind to myself. This is who I am — I have to love that."
She's now much happier and in a better, more positive place.
"Part of being healthy is being positive," Kesha explained. "I don't pay attention to the internet or bloggers. I surround myself with positive people. I run a few miles on the beach every day, and I got into transcendental meditation to try to find some peace in my crazy life. [It reminds me] to be grateful for where I am, for my body and my face — as imperfect as any of it may be."
We're glad that Kesha is doing so well and is embracing all the positive aspects of her life.