Portia de Rossi is opening up about the struggles that she faced in the past, and how she developed an eating disorder when she was just a child.
Speaking during a preview clip obtained by Entertainment Tonight for an episode of the new documentary series It Got Better, de Rossi revealed how her modeling career put huge stress on her.
“I felt tremendous responsibility when I was 12 years old and I was put on a catwalk,” she says in the clip. “My modeling agents had told me to go on a diet. So I didn’t eat for 10 days before then.”
The Arrested Development actress went on to explain how she was also bullied during some auditions, which had a devastating effect on her. And as the pressure continued to build up, she began comfort eating — it was then that her struggle with bulimia first began.
“I get up on this catwalk, and I’m a little kid, and I’m posing and trying to be sexy and strutting around, and all the other models are making fun of my bushy eyebrows,” she recalls.
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“I got in the car after that event, and just opened up a bag of my favorite candy and put my whole head in it,” she says. “And I think, ‘Shit, what have I done? I just undid two weeks’ worth of dieting.’ I mean, I’m 12 years old. So then I vomit. Erase the feelings with food, erase the food by vomiting… but you’re still left with the shame.”
Watch the video below.