Nicki Minaj’s new album Pinkprint is honest and emotional, and it shows a different side to the rapper. In fact, it was in this album that Minaj rapped about the pain of losing a child 16 years ago, and now she’s elaborating on that heartbreaking story.
During an interview with Rolling Stone magazine, the “Anaconda” hit maker reflected on her youth and how she met an older man while attending the famous LaGuardia performing arts high school. Minaj became pregnant with the man’s baby and was left devastated by having to make a decision about her pregnancy at such a young age.
“I thought I was going to die,” she told the magazine. “I was a teenager. It was the hardest thing I’d ever gone through.”
Minaj ended up having an abortion, but it is a decision she did not take lightly and admits it has “haunted me all my life,” although at the time she felt it was the right decision for her.
“It’d be contradictory if I said I wasn’t pro-choice. I wasn’t ready. I didn’t have anything to offer a child,” she confessed.
Minaj previously touched on the subject in her track “Autobiography,” and more recently in a track from her Pinkprint album titled “All Things Go.”
The heartfelt song is produced by Boi-1da, Vinylz and Allen Ritter and co-written by Ester Dean, in which she raps, “My child with Aaron would have been 16, any minute/ So in some ways I feel like Caiah [Micaiah, her younger brother] is the both of them/ It’s like he’s Caiah’s little angel, looking over him.”