Tori Spelling on husband's cheating: "It's hard & I miss him"

Apr 22, 2014 at 4:04 p.m. ET

Tori Spelling opens up about her husband Dean McDermott's affair during her new reality show's premiere as she drives to see him in rehab.

Tori Spelling
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In her new reality show True Tori, Tori Spelling speaks out on Dean McDermott's cheating during a drive to see him in rehab for the first time since his affair.

In a preview clip of her show's premiere, Spelling is shown in her car as she drives to see McDermott in rehab where he's seeking treatment for a sex addiction. "I don't know what I'm going to say to him today," the 40-year-old mom of four admitted.

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"I don't know what to expect, to be honest," Spelling added. "I know it's going to be hard and at the same time I feel really excited to see him."

The show will center on Spelling's life with McDermott following an affair he had while he was away on a business trip. It begins with the 47-year-old Chopped Canada host still in rehab just a short while before he completed treatment for his problem.

While extremely upset about her husband's infidelity, Spelling claimed she still felt his absence and said life without him was not easy for her.

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"I feel like that's the wrong thing to say. I feel like it makes me sound weak, but it's been really hard and I miss him," Spelling went on. "I miss having my best friend. I miss having that support, that person that's your go-to in life. And now it's just stripped from me. I had it for seven years and it was just gone one day. And I go on. I go on every single day as best I can."

The former Beverly Hills 90210 star appeared even more emotional as she went on confessing her feelings, trying to stop herself from weeping. She said she didn't want McDermott to see her falling apart. "I want to be strong," Spelling said at the end of the clip.