Nicole Kidman on Cruise marriage: He wasn't her "great love"

Oct 29, 2013 at 5:12 p.m. ET

Nicole Kidman shares about what life was like in the Tom Cruise bubble in December's Vanity Fair. It was romantic, but not so happy.


It's been over a decade since Nicole Kidman was married to Tom Cruise, but the actress is finally opening up about her first marriage. As the cover story for Vanity Fair's December issue, Kidman talks about what went wrong in her high-profile relationship to the superstar.

She married Cruise at the age of 23 and she admits that contributed to their downfall.

Kidman revealed, "I was so young. And you know, with no disrespect to what I had with Tom, I've met my great love now. And I really did not know if that was going to happen. I wanted it, but I didn't want it for a while, because I didn't want to jump from one relationship to another. I had a lot of time alone, which was really, really good, because I was a child, really, when I got married. And I needed to grow up."

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The Oscar-winning actress married Australian country singer Keith Urban in 2006 and they now have two daughters, Sunday Rose and Faith Margaret. Their lives revolve around family and a laid-back lifestyle in Nashville, Tennessee. She doesn't miss the level of fame she endured during the Cruise years.

"There is something about that sort of existence that, if you really focus on each other and you're in that bubble, it's very intoxicating, because it's just the two of you. And there is only one other person that's going through it," she explained. "So it brings you very close, and it's deeply romantic. I'm sure Brad and Angelina have that — because there's nobody else that understands it except that person who's sleeping right next to you."

Even that romantic feeling of two people against the world wasn't enough to sustain the marriage to the Mission Impossible star. Even though Kidman is still considered an A-list actress, she feels less famous now and she's OK with that.

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"Having experienced extreme fame and now getting to a place where it's not so dominating in my life, I'm always surprised when I go somewhere and people know who I am," said Kidman.

The quieter life suits the 46-year-old mother just fine even though she and Urban are still recognizable faces.

She summed up her life now to the magazine. "My husband and I are in uncharted territory because we're trying to find artistic expression but also we're incredibly connected as a family — we're very, very tight, very, very close, and I have a very, very primal protection of my family."

Kidman will next be seen on the big screen in Grace of Monaco andAnchorman 2: The Legend Continues.

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