"I will never have the words to capture what I thought and what I felt when I held Mattix for the first time. It had been nine long months since we first saw his photo and were told he would be our son – we spent many of those months uncertain of what would happen. Nine months of waiting, 24 hours of air travel, a few hours of sleep and eight hours in a van... and then I was finally holding him. He was perfect and beautiful and scared and uncertain and untrusting.
I knew all of those things immediately. I also knew that I was luckier than I deserved. I promised him I'd love him forever and do the best I possibly could. It has been just over four years and I still look at him – a perfect and beautiful and confident and loving and very certain 5-year-old – and wonder what I could have possibly done to deserve him."
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