In part one of REDBOOK's series about raising a child with autism, Nicole Kalkowski and her family were overcome with shock and confusion when their outgoing and vivacious toddler, Ryan, began to lose his language and social skills; his sudden problems with speech and disinterest in hugs from his sisters were just the start of his perplexing symptoms.
After an agonizing search for answers, Nicole and her husband, Tim, discovered that Ryan, now 3, has what many call regressive autism — he appeared to be developing normally, but began to backslide at 17 months. In this installment, we witness the painful toll Ryan's condition has taken on Nicole and follow her and her Las Vegas family as they navigate the murky waters of treatment.
On a Sunday morning in September, about 30 parish-ioners squeeze into a small room located just off the main sanctuary in Faith Lutheran Community Church. Nicole Kalkowski and her family have been active members of the church for the past five years. And today, the congregants have gathered to pray for Nicole's son, Ryan.
Nicole sits on a small altar with daughters Ciera, 8, and Ella, 6, huddled together on her lap. The 35-year-old mom wishes her husband, Tim, could be with her, but the couple agreed that it would be best for him to stay home with Ryan, who, in a packed church, would have been screaming and crying inconsolably. Slowly, the church members begin to hold hands and form a circle around Nicole and her girls. Most people have tears in their eyes.
No longer able to keep her composure, Nicole starts sobbing. As she wipes away her tears, everyone bows heads and listens as Bible passages are read. Then, a teacher at the church school presents Ciera and Ella with a book of prayers created by their classmates.
As the vigil ends, the well-wishers hug Nicole and her daughters. Ciera's eyes well up as she whispers to her mom, "Ryan is really special."