"This video was an emotional release for me," Demi Lovato revealed during a visit to On Air with Ryan Seacrest. "This isn't your glam video. I remember thinking, 'I don't want it to look like this video is all about the hair and make-up and the outfit.'"
Instead, it's about a lone Disney alum wandering a stark, deserted plain and at times, walking on glass. Lost in that depressing world, Lovato stares into the camera even as she fights to replace long, painful and often teary looks with an empowered glare. A shattered and unprotected heart won't keep Lovato down.
"There were so many things that represented my addictions and eating disorders and self-harm," Lovato told Seacrest. "When I'm unraveling this black fabric... It was the toxicity took over my mind for so long, that oozed out of every pore that I had because I was suffering inside... I'm taking it off and walking on broken glass and powering through it. That video was... like therapy... I kept crying, I was so emotionally invested... That's what music videos are all about."
Lovato also told Seacrest her move to drop out of the spotlight to seek treatment back in October saved her life, but her fight isn't over. "I wasn't going to continue to be alive if I continued to treat my body the way I was," she said. "It's a daily journey and it's definitely going to be a struggle that I'll have to deal with for the rest of my life. Sometimes I think, 'Why couldn't I have been normal?'"
While everyone would love to be normal, Lovato's biggest message to fans is much more positive. "No matter how hard your rock bottom is you CAN rise above it and you CAN come back," she said. "I even got a tattoo [on my wrists], it's very symbolic for me to cover [my scars] up and also replace it with something else that is permanent so that I will never be able to forget the support I had when I checked in [to rehab]."
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