"As I write this blog, I have so many mixed emotions, but mostly it's sadness and betrayal," Gunvalson began. She then went on to address her ex, Brooks Ayers' cancer, and whether she truly believed he was faking his illness.
"I don't know how or why the season ended the way it did, but all I want to share with you at this time is my perspective and what I went through this year AFTER the death of my mother. The constant subject line of Brooks' cancer, his choice of treatment, and if he was "faking" it or not has gotten out of control," she wrote.
"My stance is I do not believe he faked cancer, as there are way too many people involved, way too many doctor visits and way too many doctor reports which would be very difficult to falsify. As I said at the reunion, I didn't have enough information that he does have cancer, and I didn't have enough information that he doesn't. Brooks became very private with his health information the last few months of our relationship, which made it difficult for me to discuss this with him."
Gunvalson then explained that she and Ayers agreed she would "not discuss it [his cancer] without him present, which brought on more controversy."
But the "hardest part," she says, is that she knows "the ladies initially were coming from a good place, but unfortunately my emotions were heightened due to many personal reasons and I couldn't see that."
She added, "Hindsight, I didn't handle things always in the calmest manner which I am sorry for that, but I was extremely frustrated having to always be questioned about him."
Fans of the show know that Shannon Beador and Gunvalson had a falling out after she shared information about Beador's husband David's affair.
"I never betrayed her [Shannon], she was just embarrassed that it was exposed again when it was supposed to be about badgering me. I knew what David and Shannon shared this season, and it was Shannon's decision to reveal the affair so I didn't think it was a secret to tell my brother," Gunvalson wrote.
She continued, "All the ladies already knew, so for me to tell my brother privately was NOT betraying her. He had met David and Shannon the year before in Puerto Vallarta so he was aware of their marriage struggles as they were discussed there. When I told Billy and Ronda that they were able to reconcile their marriage and that they filmed their journey, I was proud of them and was their biggest supporter. I was not being malicious by any means."
Gunvalson's lengthy post also explained that Tamra Judge had previously told the group about David's affair and "even disclosed the woman's name and information about her." As well as apologizing to Heather and Terry Dubrow for accidentally involving them in her drama.
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