"Well, I feel f****** crazy," the songstress said about her current state of mind. "But I don't think I am. People make me feel crazy." They're bold words for the singer, but considering her recent comments about wishing she were dead, it's not too out there. Del Rey told the magazine she feels like she's in such a frantic mind-set because of how the media perpetuates her words in the first place. "I find that most people I meet figure I kind of want to kill myself anyway. So, it comes up every time," she added.
In an industry like this, no one forgets the past, and one of her other demons includes some dreadful performances on Saturday Night Live. "It wasn't dynamic, but it was true to form," Del Rey said about her performances, admitting that after the debacle many of her music industry friends pulled away from her. "They were like, 'Maybe I don't want to be associated with her — not a great reputation.'"
And yet, she still continues with her job, but there's another tidbit from the cover story that might surprise fans: Del Rey doesn't really want people to listen to her music. "I'm very selfish. I make everything for me, kind of. I mean, every little thing, down to the guitar and the drums. It's just for me," she said.
Sure, it sounds bewildering at first, but think about it. Del Rey doesn't want to listen to trends, or what others have to say about the music she's making. She just wants to focus on herself and how she should make her art. "I don't want them to hear it and think about it. It's none of their business!" she continued.
Del Rey's issue of Rolling Stone hits newsstands on Friday, July 18.
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