The harsh words written by Julia Roberts' half-sister in her suicide note are no longer a thing of mystery to the public. The letter, recently obtained by MailOnline, leaves no mystery about how Nancy Motes felt about her family members.
"My mother and so-called 'siblings' get nothing except the memory that they are the ones that drove me into the deepest depression I've ever been in," the handwritten note reads.
"I've suffered thru this disease all my life, however it has never been this bad," the 37-year-old who took her own life in February also shared. "I burst into tears every morning [because] I woke up."
To her fiancé, John Dilbeck, who discovered her body, Motes wrote, "I know this will effect [sic] you the most & I can't apologize enough. I was truly blessed & lucky to have you as my true love and best friend. I will carry you with me forever."
After Motes' passing the Los Angeles County coroner ruled she killed herself by taking a variety of drugs before climbing into the bathtub at a home where she was house-sitting.
Opening up about the loss of her half-sibling to The Wall Street Journal, the beloved actress spoke about the pain Motes' suicide has caused by sharing, "There aren't words to explain what any of us have been through in these last 20 days. It's hour by hour some days, but you just keep looking ahead.
"You don't want anything bad to happen to anyone, but there are so many tragic, painful, inexplicable things in the world. But [as with] any situation of challenge and despair, we must find a way, as a family. It's so hard to formulate a sentence about it outside the weepy huddle of my family."
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