Megan Fox feels strongly that her life and worry level will never be the same now that she's a mom. The beauty, seen here doing reshoots for Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles in April, has opened up to Parents magazine about having two under age 2 and all the guilt that entails.
"Before you have kids, you really do not understand how much work it is and how consuming it is," the mother of 20-month-old Noah and 4-month-old Bodhi (and stepmom to husband Brian Austin Green's 12-year-old son Kassius) explained. "And then you have one and you're like, 'Oh my God, my baby is my whole world.' Every moment of the day is dedicated to this one baby, and then all of a sudden you have two babies!"
Fox, who has a no-TV policy with her young boys, went on to share, "I have to figure out how to incorporate Noah into the process and have him help me take care of Bodhi and make sure he doesn't get jealous and make sure nobody's neglected and everybody's needs are being met. As a mom, it's hard because I don't feel like I'm ever giving either one of them 100 percent of my attention or 100 percent of myself, so I carry a lot of guilt."
When she's torn between paying attention to both of them, the Transformers star said, she wonders, "Do they each understand how special they are and how much I love them? And are they understanding that they're unique?"
She added, "It's hard to make each one feel like an individual when you have to raise them together and manage them together all of the time."
"I had no idea how worried I was going to be for the rest of my life," the stunner surrounded by boys also shared. "From the moment I gave birth to Noah, that was the first time I was like, 'I love something so much that I will never be the same again.' I will never be relaxed again, because I will always be worried about him and hoping that he is OK and safe and happy."
As for work, Fox plans to keep her roles to a bare minimum in order to alleviate some of the guilt she's feeling for not being by her boys' side.
"I have to make one movie a year because I have to invest in their future and I have to be able to pay their way through college and be able to provide for them," she explained. "I'm looking for movies that will shoot in Los Angeles, for projects where I'm part of an ensemble so I can shoot in and out in 10-20 days. It's all about trying to spend as little time away from my kids as possible."
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