My name is Natalie, and I am 28 years old.
I have been married for nearly seven years to my best friend. We reside in Tennessee with and have recently gone from a family of two to a family of three when our baby daughter Nellie Rose was born January 20, 2010!
My husband and I found out we were expecting our first child in December of 2007. This child was very much planned, and we received the news with elation and joy. Unfortunately our little one was not meant for this world and we lost our "green bean" on December 22nd, 2007. The 21 days that I was pregnant with my "green bean" were the best of my life.
In June of 2008 we decided we were ready to try again, and try we did. We had been trying for nearly a year without success, when we decided to stop trying so hard and let it happen.
That was much easier said than done when you have been living your life in two-week increments, analyzing your body for potential early pregnancy symptoms and sticking your fingers up your you-know-what to see if your cervix has any telltale signs of pregnancy yet. However, for my sanity and the sanity of my dear husband, we tried what people had been annoyingly insistent upon telling us:
Relax and it will happen.
And ya know what? For us, it flipping worked. May 9th, 2009 I found myself staring at the dry end of a positive pregnancy test in disbelief. The one cycle that we weren't trying is the cycle that we caught the egg. That egg is now an hilarious, energetic 2 year old named Nellie Rose. She loves princesses AND the Avengers.
In December of 2011, my mother very suddenly fell ill. Within the course of a week, I went from a woman with a complicated relationship with her mother, to a woman having to make the decision to put her mother into hospice, to a woman without a mother at all. She died three days after Christmas, and it turned my life inside out.
I blog about a lot of things. I blog about my kid, I blog about my life, I blog about pointless stuff that I find amusing, and I blog about the process of letting go of all the harm my mother did to me emotionally in the past and dealing with the experience of her death.
Welcome to my life.