I will be turning 40 soon and have come to the conclusion ...Im not afraid. In fact Im eager for the starting line and preparing myself for the challenges ahead. Ive come to the conclusion in recent months that the only mountain standing between me and everything I want, things I dream of... is me. Its simple. well not really... because I have come to terms with the fact I need to come to terms. The running from self has to stop and its time to face all those fears and the cold darkness that probably isnt nearly as fearful, cold or dark as the three and a half year relationship I got out of not long ago. This is me stepping foreward to do what I need to do for Jen. Mending my heart, spirit, mind and body. In the last year the lines under my eyes look more like a road map proving where Ive been. The gypsy soul I have loves to travel, see, learn,experience and live... the last three years of my life I feel Ive been caged and whithering away. I have 100 pounds I want to get off of my body and keep off. I have a life Im eager to start living. A different life consisting of freedom, dreams, and smiling from the inside out.... and oh! yes! becoming a published and successful writer and photographer. Im here because Im hoping to build a network and create friendships a long the way.