I am an award winning TV producer and Advertising Executive. By all objective measure, I am successful in my personal and professional life. My husband loves me, my children are healthy, my business is one of the top Ad Agencies in South Florida, I’m a co-founder of a digital technology company, and I joyfully volunteer in my community. During Women’s History Month last year, the Mayor of Miami-Dade County, Florida chose me as the Pioneer Woman of the Year and the National Small Business Association nominated me as one of the top 5 Small Business owners in the country.
I am also 100lbs over weight. Many of our longtime clients think I’m clever no matter what size I am. But not every potential client I pitch immediately sees beyond my size. I must work harder to overcome their initial internal question, “If she can’t manage her own weight how can she manage my account?”
Like many women, I organize everything and everyone else’s life. I have made everyone and everything else the priority. I have somehow lost myself in the process.
The catalyst? There have been many. The loss of my sister to breast cancer which is increased risk with obesity, stress juggling career and family, becoming the breadwinner and struggling with the "weight" of that responsibility. I even had a woman come up to me and say “Your children are so gorgeous...You need to lose a lot of weight. They really deserve better.” I knew she was saying what others think or say behind my back. I decided to look at it as an unintended gift…
I am fat, over-fifty and relaunching my life. I have learned, now nearly 60lbs and 300 days in - that this is more about my head than the size of my ass. I'm blogging it out to work it out. They say the struggle is real...yeah. It's really real. Especially when you are brutally honest with yourself.