I am The Niche Witch. I have given myself this Internet name to protect the innocent. You will understand the meaning behind all this in my writing. My intentions at the time I wrote this was to start a blog and tell my story. I didn't know what that story was until about May 2012. I am a sexual abuse survivor that has overcome 35 years of hell. I was faced with a life decision. I had to evaluate myself to the core. I asked myself, "Why do I work so hard and the results still leave me depressed, anxious, self loathing and questioning my existence. By confronting all my darkest secrets, I was able to finally free myself from my abuser. My blog was a way for me to rid myself of these evils. I intended to start a social network for SAHM's, that for whatever reason, had no choice but to stay home.
My husband is an amazing father and vigilant when it comes to our family. He works himself to the bone, yet he does not receive the respect and income he has truly deserves. I needed to find a job from home. I needed to ease his pain. Me being a blogger that made money from the blog would be perfect for me! I created the website myself, taught myself HTML basics, web design and of course brushed up on my writing skills. I apologize ahead of time for poor grammar and punctuation...sorry!
Anywho... About me,, I am 40 years old and live in Phx Az. I am married to my soul mate. I have 3 children that I love with my heart and soul. They all need undivided attention all day! I love these little people as big as the sky. I was born in California. I resided in Seattle till I was 6. Moved to Arizona after my parents divorced. I have moved 23times in my life so far if that's any clue to my stability issues!
I was placed in foster care when I was born for 30 days. I was adopted by an angel from God who was bound to my abuser by marriage. I was diagnosed with Juvenile Rheumatoid Athritis at the age of 7. I have been battling depression for years. I had such a complex puzzle of esteem issues, but then again who really is happy with their ass as they reach the ripe old age of 40? I was actually mortified by the reflection in the mirror! But I can tell you this, I no longer hate myself. I have come to the conclusion that there is a reason for everything. I found the reason in God. He has taken away my fears, pain, and suffering and now as a result, I am a better mother, wife, lover, daughter, sister and friend.
"In all of us there is a hunger, marrow-deep, to know our heritage, to know who we are -- and where we come from. Without this enriching knowledge, there is a hollow yearning, there is the most disquieting --- loneliness. ~ Alex Haley ~ Roots