"Your writing your way out of hell helps us all. Please keep writing." (from a reader of The Notebooks of Mother X)
The Notebooks of Mother X is an anonymous memoir about the last five years of my life, during which I’ve been trying to get help for my teenage daughter who’s been repeatedly at-risk and in crisis.
When I first started this blog in the fall of 2010, I wrote: “I’m finding it hard to write about this; sometimes I’m lucky to get anything down at all. My hope is that writing will help me get through this time and be a little healthier for having had a voice—at least on the page—and that sharing my story may be helpful to other parents who might see aspects of their lives in these notes and feel a little less alone.”
After that, I wrote and posted only four blog entries. My failure to continue the blog had everything to do with the pain and overwhelming challenge of what I’ve been living. Once, I tried to start again only to stop.
Through all of this, I’ve somehow managed to fill several notebooks. Now, it is June 2013 and I’m finally ready to tell my story.
To protect the privacy of others, especially my daughter, names and identifying details have been changed. As a work of literary nonfiction, some characters have been combined and events compressed.