It's true. Some days I think about what life would be like if I quit blogging. I think about how much time I would have to waste doing other things. I'm pretty sure my house would still be less than perfect. I'm realistic enough to know I probably wouldn't replace my blogging time with cleaning or laundry. I like to think I would spend more time working in the garden.
But some days I don't want to sit in front of the computer. I want to write in my journal instead of typing. I want to write down everything I'm thinking and spill out all my frustrations without worrying about censoring what I make public. I want to read books or sleep while my daughter is napping instead of rushing to finish a post I've had in my head for a month.
Some days I feel like the blog is taking over my life. I start seeing my daily activities as potential blog posts instead of just enjoying what I'm doing in the moment. I spend too much time thinking about about matching the perfect picture with a post and worrying about writing what I think people will want to read instead of what I want to write.* I start worrying about how many page views I've had or whether I share too much information. I stress about neglecting our family blog and worry about whether or not my family is resentful of my computer time.
Sometimes I wonder if it's worth it.
Usually I decide that it is...except that I need to find a better balance.
I love the community I've found and the friends that I have made through this blog. I love the motivation it gives me to find and share new ideas, recipes, and activities. The blog helps me reflect and savor the good days and process the less good days. I love that it makes me feel connected when I feel isolated. In some ways it makes me feel like I have legitimate employment...like I'm contributing to the world in a tangible way.**
Will I quit blogging? Probably not any time soon. Will I give myself permission to take a break if I want/need one? Yes. Will I keep trying to find the perfect balance between blogging and real life? Definitely.
Some days will be computer free and some days won't. And that's okay. Like right now, I need to go do bedtime with my daughter. No more computer time for now.
*You'll notice this post doesn't have a picture. Trying to let go a little and not worry about it right now.
**Now I'm thinking about other posts I've written on similar topics and thinking I should dig them up and include links. But that sounds exhausting so I'm going to skip it tonight.
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