Start Writing....I finally just sat down

5 years ago

 

I started this blog years ago under the guise that I wanted to record my first years of parenthood and the development of my young children.  The truth is I have had this internal nagging that I wanted to write.  I frequently joke that I want to be a write like Lawman wants to be a professional baseball player.  I even started to believe this myself.  But, now, as I have entered a new season of parenthood....the season I call, the beginning of the rest of my life, the twitch in my soul to write has become an annoying tug that will not stop.  

I have loved parenting young children.  The daily rewards of cute smiles and new discoveries.  The initial monotony of it all became a rhythm that taught me to slow down and enjoy the moment.  Each moment, even the frustrating ones were sacred.  Now the boys are far from grown, but I sense a change.  A change in my role in their lives.  I no longer need to do everything for them and I don’t get to share every experience with them.  You know I was offended the first time someone told me about something Big Guy did when I wasn’t there.  I couldn’t believe he was living life without me.  Luckily, when that happened with Little Guy, I was prepared and I did not give the sweet teacher near the stink eye I had before.  

Now, I hesitate to post too much about the boys.  I want them to have their privacy and room to grow without the outside world judging them....as if no one else has ever had a three hour meltdown just to complete their homework in 5 minutes.  

A new season is beginning and I struggle like many women who stay home to care for their children to find what is next for me.  This is where I find myself, back where I started years ago.  I want to write.  I would love to be published, but I can not write under that type of pressure.  So, I will tell my story just for the sake of telling it.  


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