One of my all-time favorite hymns I learned in church was, “Be still and know that I Am God....” [Psalm 46:10]. When my heart was troubled and I felt discouraged with how my life was going, I’d sing this song, and it brought immediate comfort to me. Today, when I am afraid, when I am confused, I will sing, lifting my voice to Him in praise, and my spirit calms. That is when I am reminded that I am not alone. He is and always has been a “light unto my path.”
For many years I treaded roads ill-chosen, roads that lead me nowhere. But when I finally made the choice to stand still and listen, I began to travel roads that only God would have wanted me to travel. Though reluctantly at first, I did give up my will to Him and allowed Him to lead the way. Doors that were otherwise closed and locked to me began to open, and He’s brought me through safely.
A long-time ago I asked God to make me an instrument of His Will, that with His guiding hands I may work in His fields, helping others. Today, I am still a warrior in His service; and hidden within my heart, I bear the scars of battles fought. But I also know the joy of the many victories won.
Today, I am exactly where I am supposed to be, doing exactly what God wants me to be doing. I will also admit that I am still “a-work-in-progress,” and I make no apologies for it. With all my imperfections, because I still wear my “earthly suit,” I am content with my life. I’ve gained respect when I had none, and also know that I am loved by those that have taken the time to get to know me.
Now you may ask if I am tired, do I feel weathered and worn, and maybe even a little (or a lot) thread-bare for wear?
Shoot yeah! And so would you be.
Working for Him was never said to be easy-and-smooth going. The roads have certainly been bumpy and dusty and sometimes too dark to see two-feet away. Yes, my feet hurt; my back aches; and my eyes have pruned from too much crying. But just like the Energizer Bunny, I am still ticking and clicking and pounding my drum.
And so today, I am a living testimony of His awesome Grace and abounding Love. Today I reap my harvest, because I have so many reasons to celebrate and be thankful.
- I just celebrated 31 years married. Through the ups and downs we are still going strong, though the odds were against us from the beginning.
- I have 3 children that I wholly adore; they gave my life reason to be. My children helped me to finally grow up.
- I have 2 grandsons that I consider the jewels of my heart. And now a 3rd grandchild is on the way. A girl to complete my crown!
- We have a roof over our heads; we have shoes upon our feet and clothes to warm us; we have food aplenty to fill our bellies; and we have each other to love and comfort.
My circle of love enfolds me; my life is complete. I am finally happy.
I’ve tasted very bitter waters, but somewhere along the way I managed to be still—long enough—to know that He IS God. Now the weight of worry and sorrow no longer own me. This doubting Thomas is learning to trust Him; to trust Him in every area of her life. So to Him I give all the Praise and all the Glory, today and always. AMEN!
We dream a life to be; we live to dream that life! (vka)
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