In A Bad Place
Today FOO and I went to visit Beth S. and her sweet kiddos, Abby, Caroline, and brand new Baby JTJ. It was just what I needed, because it is so easy to be so honest with her about our shared distantly related crazy families, and how the cycles of our familial relationships affect us and how we parent. Just saying some things out loud made me realize that it is time to get back into being a little more honest and lot less hard on myself, and that some of my behavior lately has been juvenile and even dangerous. It also made me realize what a hot mess my self-image is, which is the last thing I want to perpetuate to FOO, and that I am proud of myself for taking steps to get back on track. Cryptic, yes, but those involved know about the actions to which I am referring, and I hope that they will forgive my bad behavior because I am too much of a wuss to ask for it directly.