Is a grieving mom still a mom?

4 years ago

This is my first attempt at blogging, but I sincerely hope it isn't my last. Our only son was killed in an accident a little over 2 years ago. Since then I have needed a way to express myself. After reading the book "Heaven Is Here" by Stephanie Nielsen, I realized blogging might be a great way to express my own thoughts and feelings.
Which brings me to my title - is a grieving mom still a mom?
This has been the hardest thing to not hear anymore - the mom, mama, mommy that my son would call whenever he needed me for something. Sometimes I swear I hear Garrett calling out in a store and turn to look. I hear his voice in my mind and in my dreams and I wonder if he called out to me as he realized he was going to crash? I long to hear the word mom again and all that it entails to being a mom. Knowing I won't ever be a grandmother or a mother-in-law can spin me out of control some days.
I was a good mom, so how did this all happen?
Those are the things I hope to discuss in future posts, if I find that blogging brings me a sense of hope, a feeling that I can't remember having in a long, long time.

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