Life is never static for me, things change and change isn't always easy. Each day brings pain of all kinds. I don't know what tomorrow will bring, I don't know what the next hour will bring. I am full of emotion. Laughter can be followed by tears. Tears can be followed by an overflowing love or a feeling of panic or regret.
When I feel this way, the watchword is slow. I will move slowly through my thoughts, and through my changes. I will make decsions in my life that benefit me, that help me grow as a person, and as a role model to my child. She may be 19 but she still looks to me to be the adult that she may one day become.
I need to start living an honest and authentic life. I need to be true to myself, I need to live openly and honestly. And mostly, for my own sanity, I need to live in a way that allows me to speak for myself and hope that my words and actions continue to inspire the community I live in.
This is a diary of change, my first in what I believe will be a journey.
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