Over the last few months Chloe and I have made a 300 degree change. Imagine living in severe poverty, underneath drug addicts and very little for a support system. We were alone, in a constant state of fear and feeling like we lived in a battle field. We had nothing for resources and no one to reach out too. The local police acted as though it was an inconvenience to call them and offeredabsolutely nothing
as far as protection. The courts continue to mock my requests for protection and frankly, I believe that all single mothers should leave the State of New Hampshire
. The laws are so out dated that protections are almost non existent. If you dont have money for a lawyer, you cant get help. So, if you are like most of us single mothers out there, you know the 84%
that are living well below poverty, you are totally screwed.
But enough of THAT and lets Flash forward….
Welcome to the land of Normalville, where we lack crime, drug addicts and the police are actually on top of things and do protect women and children. Yes, a little dose of Normal has set more fire in my soul and more hope has opened my heart. The police here are very helpful and care what happens to their community. There are so many people who actually have made our lives so much smoother as we try to transition and knowing that we still have the upcoming battle with my ex. Its been nice to wake up in our house, in peace and frankly if a car drives down our road it must be Sunday. The town falls asleep around 7:30 and re awakens around 4. Kids walk home from school and their are police deputy’s everywhere. We are 4 miles from the ocean and yet, far enough away from civilization that we are nicely hidden.
The first week, I applied to several jobs and had 9 interviews and 5 job offers. Chloe has 7 classes and 6 she is an A student and the 7th she is a C. Math is always a tough class. I haven’t heard Chloe laughing and singing as much as she does now. We have lost weight, feel refreshed and frankly, we are in peace. The very idea that after work, I go home to cook, help with homework, do a load of laundry and rest is the most amazing feeling. The feeling of NORMAL.
Chloe said the other day when we got a bill in the mail that we are officially normal. The feeling that we are stable is a dream state and it actually feels like luxury. Do I remind myself that this all can be taken any minute and our lives could go back to the hell state we have been forced to live in for the last three years? Land Home Finical sold our loan to another bank as soon as I started working on stopping the foreclosure and the other bank has yet to return any of my requests. Chloe’s father is trying to take her permanently as he is angry and doesn’t want to co parent. These and more flood through my head.
BUT I kick that little bastard thought out the door and lock it.
No negatives please.
Let us be in peace and let us be happy.
Please leave us alone negatives and allow us to get back on our feet and be ALIVE again. We have enjoyed our Normalville and are reminded of the time when things were good….
We are now appreciative about a lot of things and even more looking forward to just being allowed to LIVE.
To be NORMAL.
To live without fear, without as much worry and getting back on our feet.
And yes, Normal seems boring and lame but for us, normal is all we want.
So, Welcome to Normalville. Not much happens here and thatsperfectly ok with us.
Until next time…………..