Another blogger posted something on Facebook, and it struck me. I was busy at the time, and when I went back to try and find the status update, it was lost in a stream of back to school pictures, pets, and the occasional gripe about the weather. I'm pretty sure this is almost kind of near exactly what it said:
Want a slice of humble pie? Do a search on your blog for the phrase 'thank you for writing this'. If nothing comes up, well...
Since I decided not too long ago to basically let you guys be in charge of my life sometimes, I sat down when I could and did the search.
Now I knew I wasn't going to have a big goose egg from that search...
and this isn't supposed to be a "look how many people think I'm cool" kind of blog post...
but as I sat and read through each comment that showed up, I couldn't help but get a little overwhelmed.
You've reminded me once again why I'll never quit blogging...
and when I saw that the search yielded possibly hundreds of results...
I started to cry.
It wasn't the ugly cry. It was the beaming through three or four silent tears kind of cry.
Because I do feel humbled, though not in the way that Facebook status suggested.
I feel humbled by the immense weight of a gratitude that I haven't felt in a very long time.
Gratitude that I don't know if I can hold, because I have at some point forgotten what it feels like.
So today I just wanted to tell you that I'm feeling blessed...
and it's wonderfully uncomfortable.
I put a lot of my soul into my blog, and I'm always hoping to affect you...
but it's been a long time since I've sat and really let you affect me in return.
The truth is, I don't write a lot of things that are all that extraordinary. You guys respond because you feel, have felt, or understand a lot of what I put into words.
There is a thread that joins us - a connection that grows through the sharing of our humanity.
I am lucky to have a platform...
a platform that through the telling of my stories, I can also echo or mirror some of yours.
As I look at all the times one of you has said "thank you for writing this"...
All I can think to do at this moment is grin through my tears,
It means the world to me.
Not perfect, just right.
PS - If we run in the same circles on Facebook and you know who posted that status, please let me know. I owe them a big ole' kiss on the mouth.
UPDATE: It was Neil Kramer, and if his lady doesn't mind - he's got a big ole' kiss coming his way. Neil is one of my favorite street photographers and an analytical fiction and non-fiction blogger. Read him at Citizen of the Month.
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