I really really need to be grading papers right now, but I am way too into The Avett Brothers to focus on protein investigation. So that leaves me to blogging, drinking excessive amounts of water, and checking gmail constantly. The blogging because I have a lot of thoughts, drinking water because it's a habit of mine (if that can even be a habit?), and checking gmail because my 4:30 meeting place is still tba.
I'm swamped by computer programming and astrochemistry. This is how I felt when I took physical chemistry and quantitative chemical analysis in the same semester, only those two classes were taught by professors I was familiar enough with that I could waltz into their office and ask endless questions. They sort of discourage that here, and in grad school in general.
It took me an hour to write a program that calculates the volume of a sphere. A calculation I could make on my own in less than a minute. That's probably what frustrates me the most, the thought that I have the capacity to do it on my own, but it takes me so darn long to tell a machine how to do it. Which brings me full circle to my sophomore year of college and Dr. Moss's genetics class. He made us buy a book he wrote about compromising between faith and science. One of his ideas, and one that helped me a lot, was that a machine that can perform a function is smart, a machine that can program another machine to perform a function is even smarter, and a machine that can program a machine to program another machine to perform a function is the smartest, and so on. Basically his point is that it takes an incredibly intelligent creator to make a world that unfolds itself, over a less intelligent (but still awe-inspiring) creator that specifically forms the world himself. So there's computers. And then there's the big bang and the beginning of early space, which I am learning the chemical makeup of now. There's a lot of weird chemistry in space. If you thought hydrogen was boring, bite your tongue and check out deep space.
Two things I know to be true because of science: that evolution has occurred/still is occurring and that the big bang is a real event in time. Two things I know to be true because of Jesus: that God is strong, and that he loves me. These are not mutually exclusive conclusions, and my belief in one doesn't compromise the other. Rather, seeing how large and incredible the universe it only reinforces my belief in how truly magnificent my creator is.
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