The last couple of months have been pretty uhm shall we say stressful - and why did I allow it to become so stressful? Because i am made of flesh. No excuses here - i should have stood firm on this from the very beginning. But I allowed the evil one to creep in and tell me that I am going down again.
But I am not going down. Let me back up a minute and fill you in on the details.
A couple of months ago I got a call from my son- he had texted me earlier that day and said that he needed to talk. So I was ready. He said he was coming home and wanted to know if he could come stay with me. Well- of course I said yes! I am his Mom where else would he go? He is not in trouble or hurt. He had an issue, he was given a timeline to resolve that issue. He was unable to meet the timeline so they sent him home. That is all I am going to say about that. He is looking for a job and will be attending school after the new year and get his degree.
The next day I had gone down to the deli for some coffee only to return to the office to find everyone gathered in my managers office. They announced that the company was moving the entire operation here in Green Country all except the IT department to WV. I am the temp and so that meant my assignment was about to be over. Well I have been working until last Thursday - that was the last day for me. All my friends have found other jobs and I am still looking., I have applied at some of the same companies and have not heard anything, So I am not going to panic-I do have a couple of irons in the fire and am hoping to hear more this week now that I am no longer unsure of when me last day is. I am signed up at several temporary agencies looking for a temp to perm position. My resume has gone out to several companies but we have just not found a good fit yet. I am sure something will come up.
Later that same week- (I know how much more can a person take?) my computer quit working. It keeps crashing and won't pull up much on the internet. And once I do get it to pull something up it does not respond. I called my computer guy he said I could try to the F12 boot test to see what it says about the hard drive- it said failed and made all kinds of noise and alarms. So my computer is dead - not good for someone who bloggs and is trying to get her writing career off to a good start. Luckily my son has a computer and has graciously allowed me to use it and I have been able to get all but the last two of my projects done. So i can now continue to come here the two or three times a week I have planned.
If you look at this in the flesh it looks pretty bad - I had to replace my car in April because the other one was literally falling apart. So now I have a car payment as well as my usual budget to meet. I am not going to panic - why am I not going to panic? Scripture says not to- matter of fact it says it will not do me any good to panic!!
Matthew 6:25-34 NLT
25“That is why I tell you not to worry about everyday life—whether you have enough food and drink, or enough clothes to wear. Isn’t life more than food, and your body more than clothing? 26Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are? 27Can all your worries add a single moment to your life?
28“And why worry about your clothing? Look at the lilies of the field and how they grow. They don’t work or make their clothing, 29yet Solomon in all his glory was not dressed as beautifully as they are. 30And if God cares so wonderfully for wildflowers that are here today and thrown into the fire tomorrow, he will certainly care for you. Why do you have so little faith?
31“So don’t worry about these things, saying, ‘What will we eat? What will we drink? What will we wear?’ 32These things dominate the thoughts of unbelievers, but your heavenly Father already knows all your needs. 33Seek the Kingdom of God above all else, and live righteously, and he will give you everything you need.
34“So don’t worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will bring its own worries. Today’s trouble is enough for today.
That is why I am not going to panic. Pretty clear to me that there is no need to -that God is not a liar and He said He will supply all my needs! So - what am I doing in the mean time between job hunting and making follow up phone calls. I have several other things I wanted to get done. I have a couple of messages I am working on and will be able to finish those up so I can share them with the girls at the Turley facility. My craft projects are ever on going and I can concentrate on those. I have been thinking about a booth at the flea market here in town. i will be able to get over there during business hours to do the research for that. I will be busy for sure. I am also signing up to be a consultant for Mary and Martha a home party company. I plan on being pretty busy doing parties at homes, as well as online and others holding book parties. I had prayed over it and told God that if this is really what i am to do then he will have to provide a way for me to get the kit because it really is not on the budget right now. And I talked to the girl in my area and she has come up with a way for me to earn my kit and not spend any of my money. Wouldn't that be funny, after all this time that I have been praying over this and trying to decide if this is the right thing that it takes off and makes enough money that I don't need a full time job! How much more of a God thing could that be then? i am looking forward to see how he takes this and where we go with it!
I am praying for you!
#notgoingtopanic #Godhasthis #lifeisgood
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