Meeting Me Where I Am: A Month-long Journey

8 years ago
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Anyone else feeling the call to take a leap, head-first into this personal shift arena?  I sure am...in a very big way.  And true to form, I have no idea where it will take me, but I'm committed to beginning exactly where I am today, in the here and now.

As a "seeker," I've been on this path of reclaiming my personal power in its entirity, for a long time.  Some periods have been extremely intense, and I often wondered if I would survive it, and for that matter, if I even wanted to.  And without fail, on the other side of every experience, I've been met with deep revelation, healing and a surge of energy and feelings of self-appreciation and greater understanding.  As I've learned from years of study with shamans like Michael and Sandra Harner, Sandra Ingerman, Lynn Andrews, John Livingston and Crystal Dawn Morris and some indigenous teachers...a return of our personal power is crucial to feel whole, complete and self-validating.  And often, to make room for these beautiful parts of ourselves to have a place to return home to, we must be willing to make room, by letting go of that which no longer serves us.  Usually, that's easier said than done.

Fast-forward a couple of decades.  Now in my early 40's, this great university called Life is turning the heat up.  My two young teen boys are becoming men in front of my eyes (with or without my input), thanks to Dr. Oz, my husband of 20 years is starting his own mid-life renewal, my employer wants to give me a big promotion, my community is asking me to teach and share my experiences and my soul is asking me to do all of these things and more PLUS form a closer and more connected relationship with my Higher Self. 

For months, I've felt called to take a quantum leap, but I hesitated for fear of reliving past hurts, upsets and seeming turmoil.  Of course, I'm not the same woman I was in the past; none of us are.  My focus of staying present and in the moment, every moment, reminds me of that.  My body has been asking me to go into a period of fasting, deliberate prayer and meditation from today (first day of Autumn and week of the full moon) until the next full moon.  Sounds strange, I know.  But I've learned the hard way, when Spirit whispers, take advantage, because as the volume turns up, it can become more painful. 

In the past, I've gone veggie, done the Master Cleanse and a couple of other methods.  This time, I'm focusing on eliminating animal products, but using my culinary skills to make savory vegetarian dishes my family will eat with me, and doing alot of physical and emotional self care.  I alread pray and meditate daily (for the most part), but it has almost become rote.  Since I have an ongoing dialoge with God constatnyl, like a dear friend who I can tell anything, I often forget the euphoria of getting still and connecting uninterupted with Spirit in silnce for a few minutes.  As I sit here nibbling my squash ravioli and snow peas, my body is validating that yes, now is the time, today, not "I'll get to you later."  I ordered Debbie Ford's book "The 21-Day Consciousness Cleanse: A Breakthrough Program for Connecting with Your Soul's Deepest Purpose" and LOVED her book "the Dark Side of the Light Chasers."  I know Oprah really also enjoyed Kathy Freston's "Quantum Wellness Cleanse: The 21-Day Essential Guide to Healing Your Mind, Body and Spirit."  I feel like I must have been preparing for this moment all year, as I gave up drinking most anything but water in January, and no dairy for about a year.  Over this Summer, my husband went to chicken, turkey and fish only...and he's always been an amateur bodybuilder and BIG on meat for protein. 

I feel supported and unafraid of that resentment and deprivation that has dogged me with other cleanses.  I had a long conversation with a friend yesterday, and reaffirmed that God will always meet us where we are.  We don't ever have to pretend to be anything other than ourselves with our Creator.  It's a good thing He already knows the real me, because I might get pretty cranky by the half way mark.  Heaven help me, and I'll keep you posted.

 

MiChelle Jeneen  www.spiritrefreshed.blogspot.com

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