I want this year to be the year I rediscover the part of myself that is bold and fearless and finds the opportunities to go outside of my comfort zone a fun thing to do.
I'm not a risk-taker so it's not about doing scary things like driving a car at breakneck speed down a highway or going on a two thousand mile canoe trip down some rapids all by myself. For me it's about doing some of those things that are part of my vision of myself - the things I picture my future self doing, but which I never have made happen.
I want to start community music classes for children.
I want to teach college classes with grace and intelligence.
I want to have a rich and healthy sexual relationship with my husband.
I want to feel open and truly present when I see my friends and neighbors.
I want to also make some neat art projects this year and read some fun books and enjoy some good games.
Of course, the above things don't sound like anything truly extraordinarily challenging, but they are - simply because they are things I have wanted for a long time and haven't made happen. I've made gazillions of other things happen, but not the above and I think it's because those above things require to do something a bit differently than I normally do or be a bit more open than I normally am - they require me to step out a bit more and so I plan to make this year the year I do.
And when I read back over the above list (which has many things already begining) and wonder if it's nothing more than a great to-do list for the year or a list of things I'm already starting to do, I find myself realizing that there is a common theme - a common theme of wanting to be present and open and fearless.
Present, open and fearless - that sounds like a lot! But if I take a deep breath and sit in my moment, I find that I rather like that idea.
So, above I listed some of the things I'd like to get done this year (that does sound like me - getting things done), but more importantly, I hope to make my new year (which starts February 1st because I wasn't ready for January 1st) one where I practice being present, open and fearless.
(unless tomorrow I come up with something better) :)
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