December 18, 2012
Thirty minutes ago you left for Puerto Rico. You'll finish that final Independent Study project, graduate college, rent your first apartment, devote yourself full-time to your Fork Bracelets and start your life as a "grown up." As I hugged you goodbye, I thought of the journal entry I wrote seventeen-years ago, but never showed you.
August 30, 1995
Your Lion King backpack is filled with your "essentials" (Chap-stick, Scotch tape, wallet, notepad and 10-color pen). Your black Mighty Morphin Power Ranger high-tops have been laced. Your denim shorts and aqua Power Rangers T-shirt and Lion King underwear are folded and waiting; atop this pile are your name tag (with unicorn sticker) and in a small box nestled in cotton is your Rainbow pin.
Thirteen hours from now you'll board the school bus for kindergarten and our lives will be forever changed.
Nazey always told us that one door doesn't close without another door opening. For the last 5 ½ years I've been there for every accomplishment, problem, secret, joy, dilemma and milestone. Tomorrow morning as you climb the school bus steps, the first door in your life, and mine, will close. It's a door that opened at 8:09 a.m. on January 14th, 1990 and if anybody told me then how unbelievably much I'd love you today, I wouldn't believe it - couldn't comprehend it.
I've loved every minute I've spent with you and I think Daddy and I have given you the roots you'll need for a wonderful life. Yesterday at Nazey and Grampa's house I was teary-eyed and said I felt sad because "it was all over." Grampa said, "All over? It's just beginning!" I think I know what he means. Go back to page one of this journal and read the very first entry. In a sense we've been preparing for tomorrow all along. I'd love to freeze time and keep you to myself forever but that's impossible and unfair.
Your first solo flight takes off tomorrow and although Daddy and I won't be physically along for the ride, we'll be there in more important ways. Any time you act responsibly or politely, any time you are able to work out a problem, ask a question, help someone, follow your conscience, avoid dangerous situations and figure something out all by yourself we'll be there. Your excitement and readiness prove that we've done our jobs and tried to help you become the best person you could be. We gave you roots.
Fly straight tomorrow and all the tomorrow's to follow.
Tell me what's behind the next door...
I love you, honey!
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