7 years ago
The whole thing with Ed got me thinking of the guys who never knew how I felt about them.  Would I ever come clean with them?  I'm not sure how many crushes I've had but these are the ones that come to mind:
My very first crush was in the 5th grade - Josh.  I really don't remember much about Josh.  I just remember really liking him.  I've never told him he was my first crush.  As I look at his picture now it makes me smile, not because my heart goes pity pat (it doesn't) but because of that little girl inside me who thought he was just the cutest.
(btw, this picture is from 9th grd)
My first high school crush was Adam but I think he knows that.  (This pic is from 9th grd - about when I started crushing) When I was about 17 I told him a HUGE lie.  He asked if I was a virgin and I said no.  Why the hell would I lie?  {kicking myself}  I guess I just didn't want him to know I was the last virgin on earth.  (How stupid)  I'm too embarrassed to tell him what a dumb ass liar I was.

My last crush was Gman.  Reading about him in my old journal made me feel so giddy.  That crush turned into so much more and I thank God for that everyday.

So maybe someday I'll get to find out the other side of that Ed thing.  Maybe someday I'll tell those guys about my silly school girl crushes - but for the next few minutes I'll think of my newest crush.... yeah, that's Hugh Jackman {sigh}.


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