Me:1, Razor Blade: 0

4 years ago
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It's hard to think of something to write when you are filled to the brim with apathy. It really is pathetic and sad and disgusting all at the same time. 

I'm back in full on hermit mode. I don't want to go anywhere or do anything. Awesome.

The kids have been playing outside today. "Mom, come watch me swing!" James wanted some attention today. I opened the sliding glass door and poked my head out to watch him. It was a little chilly out there and I just didn't want to go out. I didn't want to see any neighbors and I just didn't want to go out there. "Good job, Bubba! You do a good job swinging. I'm going to close the door now."


I had a showdown with a razor blade today. I found it in the cupboard. I took it in the shower with me. But then the shower started to run out of hot water. So I washed my hair and everything and got out of the shower. Hung out with the blade for a while. Surfed social media... seeing if there was anyone to distract me. Not today. Held the blade for a while. Then decided to get dressed. I threw the razor blade in the trash can. Me:1, Blade:0. 

I might try to take a walk tomorrow. 

We'll see.